Thursday, September 15, 2011
13 Days Till Surgery
I can't believe my surgery date is almost here. I was scheduled for 5/02/10, but had to have shoulder surgery and needed to push my bypass back 6 weeks. The new date was 6/12/10. I really wanted to do this as a 40th birthday present to myself. I figured missing the mark by 2 days wasn't so bad. THEN..........I got hit by a car - and my world turned upside down for more than a year. Lots of pain, lots of surgeries, lots of drama.
I had to go through most of my testing again, but I finally got my new surgery date. 9/28/11.
I will say that I have been stuffing everything and anything into my mouth the past couple of weeks. I know that I will eventually be able to eat everything again - in very small portions - but I feel like every night is my "last supper." I've had crab cakes galore; waffles; I'm scheduled for a ladies tea and sushi. I fully intend on having italian, a juicy steak and some ice cream to boot!
Everyone keeps asking me if I'm nervous. The answer - YES. This is going to be a MAJOR change. Not just a physical change - I will be changing emotionally as well. As much as one can follow the boyscout motto and "be prepared" prior to the surgery - I am. I've read a ton of articles and books. I've tasted insane amounts of protein to see what I liked - I've boxed up alot of clothes (but those of you who know me are aware that every closet in my house is PACKED still!) - I've bought baby spoons; a small fridge for my office; 1 oz shot glasses; crystal light; sugar free popsicles; special shaker bottles to mix my drinks and a MAJIC BULLET. For my girlfriends out there - NOT that majic bullet - the kind that chops food!
I've stopped smoking - something EVERYONE was concerned about. I tried to reassure everyone - I can only do it cold turkey - no slowing down for me. No cigarettes for 2 weeks now. Nasty habit - but been an on and off smoker since college.
Jordan (my husband) will not be home for the surgery - he is in Japan. I know that he wants to be here - I would love him to be here as well. Actually, if he were going to travel, I think it would be best to do so for the 2 weeks after I am home from the hospital. I doubt that I will want to smell food cooking! I asked my Mom and bestie Cynda to PLEASE rotate having him over for dinner.
LOVE LOVE LOVE my surgeon. Dr. Small. Is that a sign or what? If the name didn't sell me alone, our first meeting did. He has the most amazing bedside manner. Takes his time - explains every detail - just an all around good guy.
I have ONE thing left to do before surgery - and that is to have blood work done. I'm hoping to have that checked off tomorrow - but you know where good intentions lead you.
I communicated with a work colleague / friend today. Mike has been battling colon cancer and is INSANELY INSPIRATIONAL. I've never met someone with such a positive outlook. He's doing well - and for that I am grateful. When I checked in with him today, I let him know my new surgery date. He offered to be my "coach." Didn't I mention that Mike is a marathon / cross country runner? One month after his surgery - the man is RUNNING. He says that by next year he and I will run a 5k. Hard for me to picture. I told him I was a challenge (that's the most pleasant word I could choose) - but he said he was up for it. Wonderful guy - and his encouragement really made my day.
Alot of you are concerned, and I appreciate it so much. It lets me know how much you care. That said, I have carefully and thoughtfully made this decision. Some of you are aware - some are not - I am diabetic. This surgery will give me an 87% chance of putting that into remission. That is the main reason for the surgery - the benefit of looking wonderful again is simply the cherry on the pie that is my gastric bypass surgery.
I know that this post is bouncing from one topic to another - but it is reflecting how I feel at the moment. Alot to finish before the surgery with work; the theater; the house & family. Thanks for reading - I promise to post pictures as I progress.