As difficult as this has been, I am gaining alot of insight - which is probably stuff that is painfully obvious to most everyone else. In short - the following:
- I had NO IDEA how addicted to food I was - am - were - whatever. I ate when I was happy, sad, bored, angry - it was my #1 comfort - and though its a good thing I can't do it now, it is a bit frustrating.
- Nearly every social interaction I've had was food related - going to meet a friend for a meal and shopping - food at parties - etc. I find that I am feeling very excluded at the moment. I think this is why the walk with Kristi this morning was such a wonderful surprise.
I will say that when I stopped feeling sorry for myself today - I realized how many wonderful people I have in my life. Such amazing family and friends - it's overwhelming. My friend / sister Cynda barely left my side in the hospital. My eyes would flutter - and she would be there with an ice chip for me. She really was my right arm in the hospital - and I cannot imagine how I would have gotten through those days without her.
I'm at work for a little while today - and honestly - it feels pretty good right now. I don't want to push my luck - so I'm not here for a full day - but I'm working my way up to it!
Off to write a report - and have a few bites of protein pudding!