So.........the fun continues. I've had some major issues with ulcers - pretty much due to stress. I tend to throw up about 2 - 5 times a day - and it HURTS. I revert back to yogurt alot. I've had three endoscopies in the past two months - and am on a steady dose of ulcer meds - starting to help - but what would be best is a serious reduction in stress. Not sure that is going to happen anytime soon - but pushing through.
I've packed up 11 lawn and leaf bags full of clothing that no longer fits. Yes - I am a MASSIVE CLOTHES HORSE. Sadly - all closets are still full now. :( I do look better in most clothing now - lol. And how fun it is to go into Calvin Klein and J Crew for clothes again! WOO HOO!
As I was packing up clothes, I started trying things on - I was amazed that I could get two legs into one side of a pair of pants! I need to get a photo of this and post it so you can see. CRAZY! It was a huge shock to me! I may have mentioned before - I have body dysmorphia - so when I look in the mirror, I dont' really see much of a difference from where where I was before to where I am now. Only when I do things like jump into one side of an old pair of pants do I begin to realize that I've lost a person now. Weird right? It is to me. I'm always amazed at the major reaction I get from people who haven't seen me in awhile.....or when I look at old photos of me pre surgery.
I wish that my back felt better after all of this weight loss - but that is simply not the case - and I'm trying to work with my new limitations at the urging of my rheumatologist. It's a process - and a very difficult one at that.
My husband and parents have been INSANELY SUPPORTIVE - I could have never survived the past three years without them. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU - there are no words to express my gratitude and love for you three.